Bedtime at our house can be either the grumpiest or the sweetest time of our day. We are all usually exhausted and my parent time sheet feels expired, but sometimes, even with all that, a little magic happens. There is just something about being together with your little one, almost nose to nose, and hearing their soul spill out. Tonight was one of those nights and I had to write about it before it’s a lost memory. I’m going to do my best to keep it as word for word as I can remember! (And both of these conversations happened one-on-one.)
Drew: Mom, I wish there was no sin and no stomach bugs in this world.
Me: Me too buddy.
Drew: In heaven, there won’t be any of that. It’s all here because of you know who, (makes a stinky face) Adam and Eve…but not really them, actually the snake. Mom, why didn’t God give them a second chance?
Me: Well He did. God said that they could eat of any tree of all the millions of trees in their garden but if they ate of the one tree, they would die. What happened when they ate the fruit from the one tree? Did they die?
Me: No, God showed them grace. He let them live. They didn’t get to live in the garden any more but they did not die. God gave them a second chance.
Drew: God is the nicest guy ever….(pensive look)…how did He get created?
Me: That’s a great question! He wasn’t created. He is uncreated because He is the Creator. He has just always been there.
Drew: My mind can’t even get that.
Me: (laughing) Well, I can tell you it doesn’t get any easier to understand when you’re a grown-up. My mind can’t get it either!
Drew: But in heaven we’ll get it.
Me: Yes we will.
Caleb: When am I going to die?
Me: (with slight panic) I don’t know bud….what’s on your mind?
Caleb: I just really want to go to heaven. Don’t you?
Me: Yes! What makes you want to go to heaven?
Caleb: I just really want to see what God looks like. I’ve never seen Him before.
Me: I’ve never seen Him before either but..,
Caleb (interrupts): I’ve heard Him.
Me: Yes, we can hear Him and we can see what He does.
Caleb: Like what?
Me: Like heal our boo-boos, and give us food and change us into more loving people.
Caleb: And plant trees.
Caleb: I just wiped a booger on your shirt.
Me: (Gags, giggles, tickles…)
I write this to remind myself (and anyone else who needs to hear it) that in spite of all my shortcomings and struggles as a parent, God is at work in our home. He is present because He is faithful. He alone knows how our kids will “turn out” and I trust HIM for that. Rest easy my friends. He is with us.